Monday, June 28, 2010

My weekend in [a LOT of] pictures

First, I've extremely overdue on my happy mail pictures... (every time I write happy mail I feel like I'm writing happy meal... and it makes me think of McDonald's... so strange...)

Brandilyn sent me a cute package with vintage fabric, a funky glass ring that I can't wait to wear, beautiful old postcards, and a yummy bar of ghirardelli caramel and milk chocolate.

I added the postcards to my ever-growing postcard collection. I want to start putting them on the walls, but so far this is all I have up.

Marci sent me this lovely collection of goodies, it was such a nice surprise getting it in the mail :) I knew it was coming of course, but I didn't know that she would send me so many wonderful things!

She sent me pretty fabric in my favorite colors, a mini journal with a bird on the front, ring and bracelet, blue thread, postcards, a crocheted headband with yellow buttons, GIRAFFES, a giraffe charm (my favorite!) whale cards (also my favorite), a cute little coin purse, and a bunting with my name on it that she made herself! I don't know if she did it on purpose, but it's in yellow, turquoise, and purple (my three favorite colors). :)

It was too fun doing these giveaways, thanks so much you guys! :)


This weekend one of my best friends from school came to visit me :] We went to my two favorite places in the whole world (within an hour's distance, of course). I "borrowed" my dad's camera for the pictures because it's such a dream to use...

I want to be married here.

(isn't her hair gorgeous? I couldn't stop taking pictures of it...)

I have an obsession with taking pictures of feet.... =]

I just love how the colors turned out in this one.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010


So, the blog is undergoing modifications at the moment. And I haven't had enough time to update it all at once, so it's going to be happening in stages. :P Which is why it looks so funky just now.

Also.... today and yesterday my happy mail came!!! :] I just want to say that I lucked out, and got paired with two amazing and lovely people, they're so nice ^-^ So thank you, thank you, thank you!! I'll be posting pictures as soon as I clear enough space off of my desk/bed/floor to take a picture of it all. (Yeah... don't know what's up recently, usually I'm such a clean freak, but the room looks like some poor innocent victim of an earthquake at the moment. I just need to sit down and clean everything one day - today, hopefully- but instead the alluring world of blogging, facebook, and youtube call my name. Not to mention I'm working at home this summer since I couldn't find a job, so right now I'm staining ALL of our fence outside. It covers about 1.5 acres. Blah. And I've been applying for scholarships like mad since I have $12,000 I need to raise for this year's tuition that isn't covered by scholarships - yes, unfortunately my school IS that expensive. Curses on you, snotty private school! Sooooo this is just turning into a massive run-on sentence-pity party of complaining, ALL enclosed in parentheses! Back to whatever it was I was saying...) But yes, I can't wait to show you all what lovely things they sent. :)

Have you ever signed up for a free trial of some online music store, and then forget to cancel it in time? :\ Ugh. This is my first time. I check my online banking, and notice my account is $15.99 short of what I expected, and then see.... it's from emusic. Oh hurrah. $16 of music that I probably could have gotten for free. I guess this is just payback for the hundreds of megabytes of musics I've downloaded for free... hah. Now I won't feel as guilty ;)

Monday, June 21, 2010

You make my heart scream color.

^ amazing song. I'm obsessed with it at the moment. Look it up. Colors by Barcelona.

So I was sitting on my bed, finding things on weheartit, when this comes bursting into my room....

This is my favorite little 5 year old brother. (shhh, don't tell the others...) I liked the boxers-shirtless-batman cape-spiderman mask combo.
It makes me so sad to think that someday (and probably soon) he won't let me do this anymore. :(

Today I made creme brulee for my older bro's birthday. But I made him use the torch, because it scared me. =P Cracking the top of it made me feel like Amelie. :)

I've really been thinking about getting my tattoo a lot, recently. Or, the tattoo I want. Really the only things that are holding me back... money, the possible effects it might have on me, and future regrets. I'm pretty broke right now, (especially broke after seeing my financial aid letter for this year... augh... my empty bank account is crying...) I have this weird habit of blacking out in situations of high stress or high excitement (usually the first - I always get light headed and have sometimes blacked out when getting shots or blood drawn, ew), and finally.... I think if I got one I might regret it later. Not like, a year later... but like, 60-year old woman with a tattoo regrets. I just can't imagine myself as a granny with a tattoo. Is that not a somewhat strange mental picture? Plus I promised myself that I'd make myself wait for at least a year before I get one, just so it's not a spur of the moment thing, and I've had time to make the decision.
But I want one soooo baddd right now.
If anyone would like to offer words of wisdom, advice, "don't do it", I'll read every comment. ;)

Friday, June 18, 2010

Oh, reckless abandon like no one's watching you

Went shopping today for my happy mail recipients. :] I hope you'll love the mail love that will be coming your way soon! (though I'll apologize in advance, they might not be sent out until Monday or Tuesday, it's a crazy weekend coming up! Father's day, my parents' anniversary, and my brother's birthday! yeeesh!)

(To those of you who are sick of reading my blog posts on love... I regret to tell you that here you will find another one. You have been warned.)

So today I was talking about what I want in a guy with my mom (one of those rather rare heart-to-heart completely serious boy talks), and I am simply a younger version of her. I sort of forgot that she was so involved with the hippie scene, which is pretty much being revived right now just under the terms "indie" and "hipster", so when she started listing all the characteristics in a guy that I love, I was reminded of that. ;) I was describing him to her when she said "oh... and of course his idea of a good honeymoon would be taking his camper out west and camping out under the stars." AHHH! Mommy! How did you know??! Here were some of the things I came up with...

-into music
-would be happy to spend the day in an art museum
-READS (this is a biggie... I don't know WHY this is, but guys who read just seem scarce nowadays...books have been thrown by the wayside in favor of xbox and football. we're not going to get into how this makes me feel... *fumes*)
-likes camping and hiking
-is not absolutely obsessed with football (soccer would be okay... just NOT football....)
-can totally pull off a beard :)
-loves his family
-and, more importantly, loves nothing so much as GOD
-plays a musical instrument. Preferably piano or a stringed instrument. And singing would just be an added plus ;)
-plaid plaid plaid. PLAID. (need I say more?)
-can be jealous
-laid back, but able to hold his own in an argument
-could spend a week out in the wilderness and not be reliant on technology
-appreciates a nice vintage wine every so often ;) (beer is icky.)
-will sit and listen to me playing piano without getting bored (this isn't a me being vain thing... well, maybe it is a bit... but I just feel like I need this. Because I really need someone who can listen to me play. Forever. Not just in admiration, but just accepting of the fact that when I sit down at the bench, it's like I'm stuck there. I'm completely absorbed. I just have to keep playing. And I just have to play for someone else, it sounds so much better when I'm trying to play for someone)
-wants to build our own house. Hopefully up in a tree somewhere. :)

I'm usually very anti-making lists about things like this, because it seems that I'll start falling in love with this imaginary guy that is just too good to be true... which is probably true. I'm not sure I'll EVER find a guy as perfect as the one described above... I just don't know if it's possible that there is a guy like that out there. So this isn't my "LIST", they're just things that would be extra wonderfulness. If I can find someone at ALL out there who will love me for who I am with all his heart, I'll feel like the luckiest girl int he world. I'm still waiting for that guy. Hopefully he's saying the same about me. :)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Mail love!

Today I opened my mailbox and had maaailll!! :D
It was from the lovely recipient of my accessory swap, and she wrote me a very sweet letter telling me how much she liked the stuff I sent :) It makes me so happy to send people stuff!

I also got my happy mail letters a few days ago. Both of the girls I got paired up with are so sweet, I can't wait to send them more letters and packages!

My favorite part of one of the letters..... BEAUTY AND THE BEAST STAMP!! I really want Disney stamps now...

The sad thing about sending mail over blogs is... you never know what will happen. Last month two of the swaps I entered I was super excited to send people stuff and, okay yes, I'll admit it was also exciting to get something back too. ;) But nothing ever turned up. :( I tried contacting the people who organized the swaps to see if something had somehow gone wrong, and both of them told me a lot of people had been telling them that they had sent their package, but not gotten one in return. Sad! Hopefully the same thing didn't happen with the ones I sent out! :\ But in all honesty, I just was glad to be able to send someone some happiness in their mailbox, and I hope it made their day a little bit better. :D

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

People say you're not alone.
but the truth is...
you are alone.

But there is a strength in solitude.
a stark beauty
a solemn hush
a vast stillness
a lonely serenity
a silent, screaming cry
that is found only in being alone.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

the promise of new music

I love that feeling of new music. :) Finding a new band, a new song you just can't stop listening to..... or my personal favorite, finding out you have money still left over in gift card form for itunes or emusic.... I hardly BUY any of my music anymore because I'm so broke, I just get what I can find online for free.
Speaking of free online music....

I just found this positively SUPER website.

there are like, 30 playlists all full of wonderful indie music! If each one wasn't over 100 MB I'd be downloading them all simultaneously. :)

Hope you all are having a positively fantastic day. <3

Sunday, June 13, 2010


Truth be told I miss you...
And truth be told, I'm lying...
Now you'll never see what you've done to me
You can take back your memories, they're no good to me
And here's all your lies, you can look me in the eyes
With that sad, sad look you wear so well

Some people just aren't worth it. Sometimes I just want to give up when faced with such difficult situations as this one.
It'd be so much easier just to hate you... but I hate hating people. :(

Saturday, June 12, 2010

sailboat love

you go out to sea,
have adventures,
make a name for yourself.
but when you need to come home,
i'll be here waiting.

i'll wait forever.

Today I really really want.....

a sailboat.

and love.
love like this.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

if you are 5 words then you're afraid to be the one, if i am 4 words then i am needing of your love.

right now.....

watching: Moulin Rouge (first time! I'm so excited. it's been on my to-watch list for months, I just never got a hold of it at the library. Now I'm going easy way out and streaming it.. *cough* online... I might recap what I thought of it later...)
reading: the Boy in the Striped Pajamas
listening to: Some People Have Real Problems by Sia. (My favorite of her albums. if you've never heard of her... GO GIVE IT A LISTEN. Crazy, crazy, pure talent. I love the rawness of her voice. New album coming out in a little less than two weeks, eek!!! can't wait.)
obsessing over: paisley prints

edit: so I'm pretty sure all of my headings just tripled in size... not really sure how this happened... but looks good, no? I think I'll leave it like that.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

just wanted to take a minute....

... and say HI new followers! :) Or to any followers at all, for that matter! I started this blog as a sort of secret place away from most of the people I know in the REAL world to express myself, post stuff that was inspiring to me, rant, rave, be a crazy person, and all that. ;) So it's sort of surprising and flattering to me that ANYONE would want to follow my silly ramblings, but if you insist. :]

Also, thanks especially for the sweet comments on my last post, they made me smile. :)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

to whom it may concern

Why are you so far from me?
In my arms is where you ought to be
How long will you make me wait?
I don't know how much more I can take

I missed you
But I haven't met you
Oh, but I want to
How I do...

Slowly counting the days
Till I finally know your name.
The way your hand feels 'round my waist
The way you laugh, the way your kisses taste

I missed you
But I haven't met you
Oh, but I want to
How I do, how I do

Dear whoever you might be
I'm still waiting patiently....